4 too many...

So it's been a while since I've kept you all up to date.  Scott and I have been busy with church, work and school, which has been a good distraction up until now.  On Saturday - three days ago - we had a D&C as a result of our fourth miscarriage.  At this point there aren't words to describe the heartache this is.  I NEVER thought I'd be here.  I know statistics don't matter to God but only 1% of couples actively trying to conceive will have three or more consecutive losses.  I feel like I'm starting to lose hope.  I honestly don't know what will happen, what we'll find out, or what to do.  I just ask that you would pray for us.  For direction, guidance, and most of all peace and healing.  It's devastating.  I thought it would be better to go back to work today and I got there, and couldn't keep myself together.  I only stayed two hours before I had to leave.  I want this all to be behind us.  Also, not to forget...today is my due date with our first angel.  What a day.