Looking back on our last miscarriages I remember feeling sadness and all the normal things you would feel with a loss of your unborn baby. However, this time, I am very anxious, all the time, but some moments are worse than others and it seems to heighten my sadness in certain moments. For instance, Scott and I decided to do further testing with a different provider. Out of respect to the provider we've been with I called them to let them know what has happened in the past week and what our immediate plans were. I didn't expect them to agree (I knew they wouldn't) but I figured they would be a little understanding.
I think they were as understanding as they could be in the moment of surprise. We have been with this provider for so long I don't think they expected me to go anywhere else. But their reaction caught me off guard and it seemed like they were angry with me and objected to the testing.
